Saturday, 5 August 2017

Velvet wings

My short summer break is already ending. I'm going to have to start my next work week tomorrow with a night sift. I have never had a night sift before and I'm kinda sure I'll just fall asleep at some point. We'll see. At least I have to stay up until the early morning tomorrow so I can try to adjust a bit, probably just gonna end up falling a sleep on the couch with a controller in my hand.


This vacation time I have mostly just been loitering. Like always. 
Lollygagging. 
Playing Witcher 3 still.

Took our cat's and we went to visit my mother-in-law in Pori. I finally got the time to go around the flea markets over there after a half a year break. I cycled 20 kilometers that day and found only a few things, nothing exiting. Kinda have to admit I was disappointed. Anyway, flea markets are what they are, they aren't always full of goodies. Maybe next time.

Velvet Shrug - Kitsune Couture, Dark Market
Velvet skirt - Tokmanni
Leather top - Flea market
Belt - Ebay
Shoes Second hand
Gloves - Ebay

I got this velvet shrug from the Lumous Gothic Festival's Dark market. The seller's business was called Kitsune Couture. Always so happy to support Finnish small businesses. But oh my, it was the fabric that drew me in. Velvet with floral patterns, can I just have everything in this fabric.  And anyways I was looking for a shrug like this so it was just perfect!


I ordered a few shirts from La Decay / Bat-cave Productions. There is sooo many I would had wanted but I just had to settle in these for now. For some reason I ordered them in men's size M. I thought maybe I would diy them somehow, but I just can't get my mind to decide how.
  

I think I forgot to show you these things I got from the medieval fair in Turku Some time ago. The Mallevs Maleficarvm also called the "hammer of witches" has been in my to read list for ages and I'm so glad I finally got a copy! The rune book also called out to me, as well as many other books there, but I just couldn't take everything, choosing is hard. I also got a poison bottle, a belt bag and a carved bone pendant.

Hope everyone has had a great summer. I'm so glad about fall approaching too, and Samhain times!

Friday, 21 July 2017

Lumous Gothic Festival 2017

Once again we ventured to the Lumous Gothic Festival in Tampere! My boyfriend was supposed to join me and my friends but he ended up being stuck at work after all. Anyhow it was pretty cool to have a hotel room all to yourself. I could spread all my stuff all around and no one cared, ahaha.

This year I also was somewhat lazy at taking photos, but here's some anyway.
For the first time in ages I also wasn't wearing a wig while going out! My hair's gotten pretty long.

Chain Harness - Aliexpress
Leather top - Flea market
Bondage belt - Ebay
Shoes - Demonia, Second hand
Skirt - Flea market

Here's the outfit for the Friday club night. And it was taken afterwards, just before going to sleep. Tipsy and stuff. The bands this night were not really in to my taste but oh well. At least Spiritual Front was decent for dancing.

Photo by Tomi Vitikainen
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 Saw Leena!

Photo by Tomi Vitikainen
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Also hang out with Miss Chaos for a while. Not enough though. :'(

Photo by my friend.
On Saturday morning before the Dark Market, we decided to visit the Sky Bar, which is a bar on top of a Hotel. The view was nice, the drinks were on the expensiveish side but not so expensive as at the Lumous club...


I can't for the sake of my life remember what was this drink called but it was good. 


It's weird being so high up. Brain constantly sends mixed messages, wtf you doing, dis not right.

Photo by Tomi Vitikainen
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All melted and messy at the Dark Market lol. 


This is most of the loot I got from the Market. I also got some tops but I'll show you those in good time. The rune necklace I actually got form a Pagan market that was partly happening in the same time as the Dark Market. I found my favorite album form Siouxsie and Banshees and I'm so happy about it!

Pvc Corset - Second hand
Collar - Etsy
Skirt - Moonmaiden Clothing
Bracelets - Ebay/Flea markets
Gloves - Ebay

Saturday club outfit! This was also taken afterwards so I'm a bit of a mess. Messy mess all around!


The band I was really looking forward on was Nachtmahr. They did a great show and really knew how to keep the audience alive! 

We didn't stay for the The End club on Sunday on this year either. I had to get up really early on Monday for work. But anyway I had a really nice time and I'm really looking forward on next year!
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Lately things have been changing around at work and it has been exhausting really. I'm still suffering from sleep deprivation and staying up late last weekend really didn't help much. Not to mention I have to work tomorrow, on a Saturday. Hooray. 

Also this post is a bit of a mess since I'm so sleepy, I can't think even. I should be sleeping right now too. BAH! 

Sunday, 18 June 2017

Skinny Puppy, Cat Café and Shopping

Few days ago on Friday, me and my friend traveled to Helsinki to see Skinny Puppy. They were just amazing live and I'm super happy we got to see them so close. A bit sad that they didn't allow even digital cameras on the venue so I had to leave mine to the cloakroom, but if that's what the band wants I suppose it's only fair.


I was really super sleepy the whole Friday. I had to wake up to work at 4am and right after work I had to hurry to the bus station and sit in the bus for 3-4 hours. Then hurry up and get to the hostel and get the makeup on and the clothes on and then navigate to Tavastia. I'm also forever sad that I forgot to get some cash so I could had bought the tour shirt, but I suppose I'll live.
 

I had a really nice time in Tavastia. If you don't mention some crazy people who really didn't seem to take other people in consideration at all while they were in a fanboy high or something. But I eventually found a calmer spot where I could just enjoy the music and performance, and not have to worry about people's elbows in my face. 


On Saturday we had some time before our bus and train would leave so we did a bit of shopping around Helsinki! I was so happy to do this since I live in a tiny city now, and you just can't shop here. Not even second hand shop, it's terrible. But after some second hand shops we ran in to the cat cafe Helkatti! First we thought that you'd probably need a reservation to get in there, but we tried anyway. So luckily they had some space as we arrived and we got in! 
  

They have 8 cats and they were adorable. Though we didn't really manage to see all of them. We mostly played with this girl, I think her name is Tuli, super playful and friendly but not really keen on petting. I ordered a club sandwich, and you can choose two topping for it, and so I chose mozzarella and marinated red onion. I have to say, even though it was the most expensive sandwich I have ever eaten, it was also the best one!

I do highly recommend the Helkatti cat cafe but definitely make a reservation. I saw so many people get turned away at the door because they were full. It's also a cafe you want to take your time with, at least an hour.  


After the cafe my friend spotted a record store. I just had to get in there to browse the used cd's section. I took a while but I found these gems among the clutter. There were also so much LP's I would had loved to browse all of those too but our time kinda ran out. Maybe next time.


Earlier in the day we browsed some mainstream shops like H&M and Gina Tricot and I picked up these items. Pusheen payjama pants (shuddup, I love pusheen D: )and the laced up crop top are from H&M. The waist belt and the lace crop top is from Gina Tricot. 

I did also do some amazing finds from a flea market we went to. I found a Spin Doctor jacket and a HUGE FLUFFY Victorian'ish skirt from Sinister. Which I love to bits, tho I can't fit it in my wardrobe and it was a real pain in the ass to haul all the way home. But you'll see pictures of those pieces eventually, maybe around Lumous Gothic festival..? :')

Sunday, 11 June 2017

It's Okay To Be You

What's this now? Two posts in one weekend? I might have gone mad.
Well I guess I just liked today's outfit.

I adore this vintage leather bodice, or whatever, I found from the flea market a long time ago. I would love to wear it all the time. Only the problem is that it was a bit too large and the front plastic boning was crazy warped. As you can even make out from this picture I took this morning. 

I took it in some time ago so the fit is much better now, but the bones were still warped. So this evening I decided to do something about it. I took out the two front bones, and now I can't wait to wear the top again soon since it looks so much neater and smoother! Would hate to waste good leather.

Vest - diy, flea market
Bodice - Flea market
Belt - Ebay
Skirt - Second Hand
Undershirt - H&M

Lately I have found the love for bodice/bustier type tops. But it's so damn hard to find ones that go with my body. The other clothing thing that I have fell in love with recently is mermaid/fishtail skirts! At the moment I only have one velvet one what I bought recently. Need. more. Gimme,

But anyways, this was a chill day. Played a ton of Stardew valley, busted out ye olde sewing machine, watched some youtube videos... Just trying to get a little bit of the stress off before work starting again very early tomorrow, ugh.


I haven't done Magical Unicorn Oracle card draws in months, but today felt like the day. And I feel like this was a good draw, just what I needed.


"It's Okay to Be Different - You don't need to be like everyone else. You're perfect just as you are!"

Saturday, 10 June 2017

Wine Night

I have been drinking slightly so excuse me for weird text or mistakes, thanks!
So yeah I brought some vine because my boyfriend told me that's the wine that was supposed to be amazing but it ended up not being that wine he remembered. It's not that good. Going to drink it anyway. 

And doing that while the neighbor blasts their churchy music from their television or radio and I can hear fucking everything. It's beyond annoying.

Shirt - Flea market
Skirt - Lindex
Collar - Etsy
Shoes - Demonia, Second hand
Tights - Ebay
Cuffs - UFF

Today's outfit was really supposed to be for my cousins graduation party but it ended up being too cold then, so I wore something else. But I thought this outfit goes for everyday wear just as well.

Lately work has been odd. I got a intern to teach. He seems nice and learns super quickly, I am slightly conflicted tough. Since when he knows enough to somewhat work alone, I can start learning the harder side of my work station and it scares the crap out of me really. Also it's terrifying that I am now the one that has been there the longest time. (in our station). So the other ones kinda look for me for help and stuff when things go wrong, and yes, things go wrong a lot in that station. Whyyyyy.

Sometimes it just feels like I can't do anything.



But anyways. My summer plans are filling up real nice! I am going to have 2 weeks off instead of the 1 I thought. Next weekend will be my first adventure and it's going the be seeing Skinny Puppy in Helsinki! I have already mentioned this many times, but... So exited! I just need to figure out what to wear. I have some outfits partially planned for Lumous Gothic festival and I kinda thought if I would steal one of those for this, but I just don't know. 

Also I took a nap today. But it was a super weird nap. I was dreaming that I was crying my eyes out. Like super intense crying. I don't remember anymore why was I crying in the dream, but when I woke up I noticed I was still crying and I couldn't stop it for like 5 minutes afterwards. Has anything like that ever happen to you? It was so odd.

Sunday, 21 May 2017

Summer shoes and planning

The summer weathers have even reached Finland. It kinda put you in the mood to start planning and shopping for summer. Though I am not sure how much I can plan since I'll probably have to work most of the summer with a few weeks of leisure time at least. 

(If you don't want to read a icky story about tooth removal and hospitals, please skip from here to below the first picture.) 
Last week was not very sunny though. 2 weeks ago Tuesday I got one of my wisdom teeth pulled once again. At first it seemed like it went well, even thought I had problems with opening my mouth and it kinda hurt to swallow. But I went on with my life with painkillers and just thinking it will pass. It didn't. On that Saturday we had a work day and I was really hating it. Not to mention the swallowing pain got so intense that I just wanted to die. It was even painful to talk, and you can imagine how horrible it was to be at work where you have to talk all the time.

On the first break I went to the bathroom and tried to glance at the back of my mouth through the mirror. It was hard but I saw a big yellow lump in there and I poked it and it hurt like fukkin hell.

I decided I needed to show it to a doctor or a dentist so I left in the middle of the day. So to keep it short, that night I ended up in the hospital ward in Turku, crying while the nurse tried to comfort me and give me painkillers. I stayed there for 3 days. On Sunday the operated on the lump and the pain pretty much was gone after that. But apparently there was a some sort of infection so they wanted to keep me there for few more days.

I had never been on a ward before and it was horrible. Tubes going in your wains, no privacy, just laying there all day, interesting food that I couldn't even eat and on the top of that, sleeping was hard as hell. If the nurse had not brought me a phone charger when I first came there, I would had gone bonkers.

But anyway I feel better now. I got some antibiotics. However I can't quite open mu mouth all they way yet. Though it's getting a slightly better each day and I hope it will fix itself in time.

So warm today!
Shoes - Fantasy Shoes, second hand
Skirt - H&M
Top - Flea market
Belts - Flea markets
Gloves - Ebay
Undershirt - H&M
But enough of that! I have been trying to plan this summer a little. Reserving some hotels and buying some tickets. 

First thing would be seeing Skinny Puppy 16th of June in Helsinki! 
And then the medieval fair in Turku 1st to 2nd of July
 and then of course the Lumous Gothic festival 14th to 16th of July.

That's what I have for now anyways. Of course I want to do even more stuff since it's going to be my first summer when I actually have decent money. Not decent enough to go to WGT in few weeks though. Which made a bit sad. But now it should be easy for me to save for next year. *sigh*

But anyways, I noticed a lack of sensible and usable summer shoes in my closet. I usually just use my combat boots all year around but this year I wanted to have some more options so I went a bit crazy with it.


First off I got these Demonia Kera -08's from Boutique Lou Lou. I had been eyeing them for a while and it seemed like the cheapest place to order them.


Then I got these Demonia Stomp-16's. Which I weren't really planning on buying, but they jumped out on me on a facebook flea market page. And they're brand new!


 And then another pair from the facebook flea market. Demonia Ranger 301's. These have some slight ware on them but nothing major. Still in great condition!

At least my feet wont run out of stuff to wear this summer!

So, have you already made plans for this summer?

Sunday, 30 April 2017

So dead

So, that was interesting. I worked for 11 days without a day off. + On Thursday I worked for 12 hours. It has been tough. I was kinda loosing my mind in the last few days, I was dropping stuff, messing up with measurements and just so sleepy. But I'm glad it's a long weekend now. I can finally dress up a bit and relax~

This job has also caused me to loose weight. It was fine when I got back to my ideal weight but then it just kept going. I have tried to eat some more at the workplace and it seems the weight loss has at least slowed down a bit.

At least I can fit in to my long velvet dress again! Going to have to wear that one of these days.

PVC corset - Second hand
Velvet skirt - Second hand
Shoes - Fantasy shoes, second hand
Belts - All flea market
Cardigan - Flea market, diy'ed

I am so starting to get sick of this apartment. Sure it's close to work and the neighbors are nice, but that's about whats good with it.

I almost never can take proper outfit pictures in the balcony unless the conditions are absolutely perfect. Not too sunny and not too windy. The balcony slopes outwards and the railing on it is so low that it's just downright scary to take any pictures of outfits that have slightly higher heels. Not to mention the full exposure the low railing and no glass gives, GAH.

Today I manged to get a whopping 1 picture of my outfit outside, just way too windy and the neighbors kept staring. I try to not let it bother, but it bothers. I just can't get comfortable in front of the camera.

Also our toilet broke on Friday. Good day to break since the next day the repair man is in, is Tuesday. We can still use it if we flush with a bucket but it's annoying. This must be such interesting information for you I imagine.

I just can't wait till they build all those new apartments in this city that they are planning. I really want to switch from this one so badly...


Some time ago I ordered some new winks from The Gothic Shoe Company. I had to place them on my bookcase since I want to stare at them all the time..


My new-ish grimoire needs some filling so I suppose I'll get to doing that today!

I have been blowing a months pay on a dentist. I'm glad they did fix 4 cavities last time but now the other side they fixed feels weird. Like they maybe left too much of the filling somewhere and it's maybe pushing a tooth sideways? Well I have a new time on 9th so I hope they fix it then if there is such a problem. It's just annoying really.

Thursday, 6 April 2017

Ghostface

Oh my where do I even start..

So I got hired to the workplace as a full timer. Which is awesome and all. It's a nice change of pace to have money coming in regularly. 

But for some reason all these money holes have suddenly appeared and it sucks. Our other cat got a urinary infection due to some bladder stones. Well they are not stones yet, only grains. The first vet we took him to did all kinds of tests to figure out what was going on and they didn't even spot the grains at all. They just gave him some antibiotics and us a large ass bill. 

Well of course the cat didn't get better and we took him to another vet. It was a smaller place closer to us and they had really good service even though they were a bit late. They did apologize for it many times though. The veterinarian instantly figured out what was wrong and gave some more antibiotics as well as a new diet to melt the grains. The nurse (or what ever vet assistant is called) was very friendly and understood my troubles with Nipsu, our cat. I also suspect she was a witch because I saw a glimpse of a pentacle around her neck. All the better to make me feel better about the place. In the end they even gave me a complimentary box of cat sand! The really fancy kind too haha.

So far it looks like our little kittie is healed, but we are still going to have to take him to a check up next week to see if the grains are gone. Let's hope so.

Top - Spiral direct, EMP
belt-pocket - Poizen Industries, Deadfine.fi
skirt - Poizen Industries, second hand
Hairband - Second hand
Legwarmers - Made by my mom
Shoes - New Rock, Flea market
 Another money hole is my mouth. Hahaha yeah literally. I have let my teeth get in to a really bad shape. I did have a time reserved in Pori for a dentist, that I waited for a half a year, and 2 weeks before the time I had to cancel it because we moved. Just fantastic. I didn't want to wait for another half a year so I went to a private dentist clinic. So it turns out I have 800€ worth of fixing to be done in my mouth. Great great..

So I thought I might as well get it done in that private clinic. I just want it done soon as possible since I haven't been able to eat anything sugary for a while, neither anything too cold. And also the aching sucks. Next week they are going to pull out 2 of my wisdom teeth, good riddance. Probably going to ask for them and turn them in to earrings.


 Today I tried for the first time the Kat Von D Lock it foundation. I bought it last summer from Stockholm but for some reason it always felt so expensive to use... But hell, there's so much of it I had to start it sometime! And I have to say I was pleasantly surprised! I took the lightest color they had, though to my understanding there is a white one too which they didn't have. And I just adore how light it is! I should have blended it more to my neck as you can see... With my other light colored foundations I don't usually have to apply it all the way to my necks since it matches pretty well.

It goes on really nicely and it really stays on too! With some of my other foundations you pretty much just have to touch your face and there's a spot left behind. So much like! Much wow! I'm going to cry big black tears when this foundation bottle is finished and I have to travel to Stockholm again lol. Or just maybe order it online. They really should carry the Kat Von D line in Finland too.

Today and yesterday I have been on a sick leave from work. I have some sort of a infection on my left arm from straining it too much on at work. It really sucks since for some reason I really wanted to be at work instead. Which is a brand new feeling for me, haha. Usually when I went to school I always wished I would become sick so I could stay home.


I have been rewarding myself a bit for getting a job.. Bought some second hand books and a Kalevala tarot card deck.
  

I especially love this card deck! All the artwork in it is so in to my liking. I was very lucky to find it second hand too, since I have only seen this deck in amazon before and there it's about 50+ dollars.


And THIS sewing mannequin!  I had been wanting one forever and ever, and so I decided to get one finally! It's the Prymadonna dress form in size S, I can't wait to do some sewing with it! I also ordered some covers for it and it's now wearing a black and white striped one, so it blends in with the decor a little bit better. It's also displaying my new restyle holster bag thingy.

I think the mannequin needs a name... I would loooove if any of you had a suggestion on what it could be?


Lately I have been into this Digimon World game! Thought I haven't been able to play in few weeks because of this infection... But if I didn't have it this is what I would be playing all the time.. q_q Also Nioh!

Tomorrow my boyfriend's sister is coming to visit for a weekend. We're gonna watch some movies, play games, watch digimon tri, go to Ikea on Saturday and make some pizza! Yay!

Sunday, 19 February 2017

Messy fluff

Today was really windy so my hair is a bit of a mess. Don't mind that. 

So sleepy all the time. I'm having slight problems with adjusting to the work times. But I'm sure I'll get used to it. Only two more days of the internship thing and then they hopefully hire me... Haven't signed anything yet.

Today I also realized that having a open balcony sucks even more than I thought. Feeling exposed, much wind, all the noises AGH!  

In work I have to wear company provided blue pants and a blue jacket (jacket is optional tho). So I don't really have to think about what to wear in the morning. It's easy, but also so boring as well.

But because of that, I really need to be myself in the weekends.

Scarf - Flea market
Vest - Diy, second hand
Longer vest - Flea market
Shirt - Flea market
Skirt - Flea market
Ankh - Backstreet, many years ago
Over knee socks - H&M
Woolly socks - Mom
Shoes - Flea market, New Rock
Gloves - Ebay
 Some time ago I also bought a ticket to see Skinny Puppy in Helsinki! They're coming to Finland this summer and I can't wait. Nor can't I wait to see  Nachtmahr in Lumous! I just can't wait for it to be summer already. Hope I don't have to work in inconvenient times tho.

Lately I have also been playing Nioh on PS4. It's a pretty awesome game, but it's really super duper hard. I try to make it on my own in it, but I often have to summon other players to help me on the bosses. Anyone else playing it? How are you doing on it?


Also it turns our I was wrong. I can not fit all my shoes in my closet. 
Fukkendaalen.

Sunday, 29 January 2017

New city, new life

The last few weeks have been so crazy! On 17th I got a call from a job I applied to and they told me I was accepted to a training program. If I would complete the one month they would hire me as a full time employee. 

The thing was though, the job would require me moving closer, to Uusikaupunki, and the program would start in 6 days. Yeah thanks for the heads up. 



So yeah, after lost of calls and arrangements we found a apartment. It's not perfect, and truth be told it's so stuck in the 70's that I cried when we had to settle to it. The wallpapers are stained and yellowish and the kitchen is very... retro. After living in a clean and renovated home for 4 years it does kinda make me sad.

The balcony isn't even glassed. I'm so sad for the kitties. Also it kinda makes me feel a bit uneasy while taking outfit pictures it seems.. 

Scarf - Flea market
Corset - Dracula Clothing
Belt bag - Gina tricot
Skirt - Flea market

As for the city, it's pretty tiny. Almost the size of the city where I grew up. Lot's of closed up shops, hardly any flea markets... I don't know how will I be able to live with that. Though it's only an hours ride back to Pori so I can visit there every once in a while.

If you can't tell, I have started to grow my eyebrows back. Just thought it would be more convenient in the job. Not that I would still like to shave them but at least it takes minutes of my mornings. Still going to shave them for special occasions though.

 I have already completed the first week of the training and there will be 3 weeks more. And I have to say that the atmosphere there is amazing and, the job I'm doing is somewhat fun as well! So far I like the job way more than my previous ones.

So you might say it's not all bad. At least the apartment is only 2 kilometers away from my job.


Also my new closet is at least two times the size as my old one. Though I'm still pretty sure my clothes wont fit in there. I still have like the half of my clothes back at the Pori apartment. At least all my shoes will probably fit there nicely when I have time to haul them over. Maybe I'll finally make that closet tour too.


Also the apartments is next to a lake. You only see it trough the kitchen window, but it's still nice. I can't wait till summer..

So yeah, funny how life changes so quickly! If someone had told me two weeks ago that I would live somewhere else next week I would had thought they were bonkers.

At least it's nice to have a change of pace. I had been without a job since fall and I had been starting to have slight cabin fever. And you know, having money never hurts. But I still miss Pori.

Thursday, 12 January 2017

Double Tail

It has been a very stormy weather here. Especially last night the wind was blowing like crazy! Windows were rattling and even though our balcony was closed there was a little bit of snow blown in from the tiny cracks. You can see some of the snow in these pictures, and also where the cat ate some of it. Ahaha.


He's such a cutie. He always wants to come to the balcony with me when I go take some outfit pictures. Though he wants back in pretty quickly when it get too cold for him.

Last weeks have been somewhat depressing but I try to keep myself more and more busy. I even signed myself to a community college class which is next month. It's a corset making class, I don't know how will it go since it's a new situation with new people in a new environment and it honestly sounds really scary to me.  


 I found this H&R jacket from a local flea market some time ago, and I really love it. Though it was one of those clothing items I had a hard time pairing with anything in my closet. Though now that I think of it, I can think quite a few items what would go with it too.

It's funny how some days it just feels so hard to think of a outfit, and some days you just have so many ideas. That's why I have a little notebook where I roughly sketch the ideas I thought so I can use it some other day. 

Jacket - H&R, Flea market
Skirt - Punk Rave, Second hand
Jabot - Punk Rave, Ebay
Belt - Self made
Shoes - Demonia, Second Hand
Bat Necklace - Alchemy Gothic, Second Hand
Tights - Ebay

One thing I have been doing most of this week is watching Games Done Quick! This must be the 3rd or 4th time I have been watching it. I have had it on pretty much 24/7. It's on till Sunday morning Finnish time, so if you want to check it out you can find it on twitch! It's a charity thing which I find really great.


I don't post outfits from the back too much but I just had to show you the double tail! 


I had a really great flea market trip last week! Since I had been so depressed, I thought maybe some second hand shopping would cheer me up. Even for a little while. And it did. 

And before anyone asks, no I don't have a LP player yet. I have been actively searching for one but I just haven't come across the perfect one yet. Hopefully soon~